Hope was my Dear Friend Hollie why is it so hard to move on with her Forever 16 with Jesus

Hollie was a precious young girl i met twice and could tell she was something special not because she has passed on to heaven saying this the second time i met her telling her yes i love writing poetry most don’t like it and take it wrong cause i write deep even friend wise so they think i am being all gay we both laughed it was at bouses dairy isle a small icecream shop in town where i live i said well u might probally think ewww too want me to show ya one oh sure i aint gonna be all eww let me see course i said ok so used to others being all after 3mins of reading she got up put her hands on my face said Writeeeee Kat i said ok u think it was that good Oh ya thats deep stuff just because others take it wrong DOOOOOO it Ok i will ty Little did i know that would be our last encounter as she was in a carwreck it pained me when i heard Hollie Chasen needs prayers on facebook and seeing someone said very bad wreck  my heart began racing thinking oh my gosh nooooo she just totally changed my life by encouragement to write course i started prayin telling god please dont take her well she was good then got worse and enventually left this life as i seen Hollie Passed away earlier this morning i got tears rolling then went to my friend in Florida telling her ty for prayers Hollie is gone please pray for all of us specially her mom and family it hurts so bad i questioned God alot sayin why such a girl who had a family a wonderful life someone like me at 16 was doing drugs having sex raped at 8months old in icu grew up no father mom didnt care she got mad she would litterly beat us then i was in 2mental hospitals at that age for suicidal attempts and i got raped by 2Pastors come on God uuuuu should of took me instead this is crap i am the one who needs to die i also have a son i got stupid at party and got pregnant here you want to take a sweet girl who has more than me and deserves more God u confuse me u took my mom i never heard i love you or got a hug now a sweet girl i hate u God What a sharp knife to my heart to take someone who deserves life more than me 

What goes on in churches unheard my experience

In religion of so many churches today when rape is mentioned or cryed out from a bishop,pastor,minister or person of title who did it usually its made hidden scared of losing the popularity fame and pride beyond it in a church u expect one with a title to be safe secure and teach not stuff to abuse or mistreat a person here is some of gods word applys to love as his greatest gift

Isaiah 61:8
“For I, the LORD, love justice; I hate robbery and wrongdoing. In my faithfulness I will reward my people and make an everlasting covenant with them.
1 Corinthians 13:4
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
1 Corinthians 13:6
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
2 Corinthians 8:7
But since you excel in everything—in faith, in speech, in knowledge, in complete earnestness and in the love we have kindled in you —see that you also excel in this grace of giving.

well in what i experience and having so many others come to me even men i know who have been raped under a persons title in church that comes unknown i wrote a poem about one of my experiences in story/poem here it is from the so called man who held a title of Pastor
Agony broken within

Since time began going to this church
little did i know it would hurt the worse

I met the Pastor walking up with my friend
he seemed very cool and a sweet gentleman

I told him i need alot of prayer i dont
know what to do anymore my heart is aching
i am so sore

We exchanged numbers at the altar going
our seperate ways he called me everyday

He asked for my address i felt it was ok
i gave it to him and met him 2times just talking away

We talked of god and the beauty he made
then on September 30 2009 he took my life heres why

Driving to the roadside park 2miles away
we went for a nature walk in the woods a little ways

Looking at a rock intrigued in its ways i turned
to look up he put a gun in my face

I froze in fear shaking asking why are you doing this
please hear

He told me to be quiet and obey I am the Pastor
your in my authority always

Take off your clothes now God says you better
listen to the way he uses me today

I said ok cryin with him pointing the gun in my face
he then pushed me down fastly in his fast pace

He started touching me in everyway i had my eyes
closed cryin tryin to ignore

He then smacked me across my face for cryin
and beggin to jesus to make him go away

He started screaming he comes the pain
Pastors are meant to teach you in every way

He began rapping me hurting me in all his gain
he started screaming Hebrews 13:17-21 sayin god meant this day

I was tryin to yell and scream but he got even madder
putting his hands over my face shouting Glory Halleujah
lets finish this race

When he got up laughing shouting running away leaving
my body broken bruised and blood stained

I got dressed walking away 3miles back home cussing
out god in everyway no car stopped to see if i was ok

Now i am Broken alone confused tryed to tell other Christians
in churches around here i knew

They all ignored me just saying to pray i guess
i will go through this on my own and god will show
his real ways

Written Feb 26 2011 by Kat true story on what happened to me September 30 2009 to a pastor i put trust in every word is true there i just put it into poem best i could

We need to stand up this is not right to get by God does not approve of it by his word either to have people twist it around and use in his sons name who died for our sins HAVE A VOICE SPEAK UP!!! MY FIRST BLOG HERE