Hope was my Dear Friend Hollie why is it so hard to move on with her Forever 16 with Jesus

Hollie was a precious young girl i met twice and could tell she was something special not because she has passed on to heaven saying this the second time i met her telling her yes i love writing poetry most don’t like it and take it wrong cause i write deep even friend wise so they think i am being all gay we both laughed it was at bouses dairy isle a small icecream shop in town where i live i said well u might probally think ewww too want me to show ya one oh sure i aint gonna be all eww let me see course i said ok so used to others being all after 3mins of reading she got up put her hands on my face said Writeeeee Kat i said ok u think it was that good Oh ya thats deep stuff just because others take it wrong DOOOOOO it Ok i will ty Little did i know that would be our last encounter as she was in a carwreck it pained me when i heard Hollie Chasen needs prayers on facebook and seeing someone said very bad wreck  my heart began racing thinking oh my gosh nooooo she just totally changed my life by encouragement to write course i started prayin telling god please dont take her well she was good then got worse and enventually left this life as i seen Hollie Passed away earlier this morning i got tears rolling then went to my friend in Florida telling her ty for prayers Hollie is gone please pray for all of us specially her mom and family it hurts so bad i questioned God alot sayin why such a girl who had a family a wonderful life someone like me at 16 was doing drugs having sex raped at 8months old in icu grew up no father mom didnt care she got mad she would litterly beat us then i was in 2mental hospitals at that age for suicidal attempts and i got raped by 2Pastors come on God uuuuu should of took me instead this is crap i am the one who needs to die i also have a son i got stupid at party and got pregnant here you want to take a sweet girl who has more than me and deserves more God u confuse me u took my mom i never heard i love you or got a hug now a sweet girl i hate u God What a sharp knife to my heart to take someone who deserves life more than me